Once upon a time, 7 short years ago we stood in front of our friends and family and made a bunch of promises I was certain would be easy to keep. Now, don’t get me wrong- most are in fact easy to keep…. but ALL the stuff in between…. ya, no one tells you about THAT stuff.
No one tells you about infertility. Death. Loss. Trauma. Addictions. People warn you it’s hard. But they don’t warn you about the battle you’re about to enter. The battle against flesh. The battle of selfishness. The battle against an enemy that desires nothing more than to see a god-centered marriage crumble right before his very eyes.
Have we made it to the finish line? Most certainly not. Have we lost some and won some, oh yes! Have we yelled and screamed and cried and begged for forgiveness and had a million sappy love-filled moments in between – yup! In fact there have been a handful of moments we have sat in my therapists office coming clean of our resentments or hurts- hoping we’d learn to understand and accept each other – in all our broken and god-designed ways. There have been silent drives home, sobering conversations, brokenness that left us completely rebuilding our foundation….. and I have to admit….
This is by far the best moment we’ve encountered yet.
For all the moments we weren’t sure we’d make it. For all the moments we fought to say yes- fought to keep “I Do” holy. For all the moments we chose to fight together instead apart….
It has been worth it.
In 2016 we had a pivotal moment- it nearly broke us. But we fought. For a few years. And we clung to everything and anything we could. I think that’s when I stopped blogging about US. But— the US we are now- deserves some attention on here. We worked hard for this. I’m proud. I’m thankful.
So, Dearest Connor,
Thank you for turning into the rock that we needed. Thank you for being broken enough to allow God to build you into the leader and man we needed in our home. Thank you for taking our vows seriously- even in the midst of our heartaches and troubles and ups and downs. Thank you for never giving up on us— or on me!
Thank you for loving our boys and growing into the man and leader that they need to know Jesus, be kind, loving and sturdy men. Thank you for showing them firm love and a great work ethic. Thank you for showing up. Thank you for encouraging me and them. Thank you for loving us unconditionally. Thank you for working your tail off- to provide both the financial and emotional support we all need.
You carry a heavy load and it’s not lost on me the sacrifices you have made. It’s a gift that you carry the burden of this family with grace and love and support.
You are our rock who reminds us to keep resting in Jesus.
I love you.