YIPPY! This weekend we announced that there will be another squishy to love on in our family. Shortly after posting on FB and Instagram I immediately felt shame. Shame that I so casually posted about our pregnancy. Shame that I wasn’t even sensitive to my friends and family on social media who might be struggling or still waiting for their first. There’s not a minute that I forget what that’s like. I feel as though I can’t keep quite about the miracles and gifts that God has placed in our lives.
In March of 2013 I was told I had bilaterally blocked tubes and too much scar tissue up there to have them opened up and produce children. I’ve now been gifted with 6 pregnancies. No, I may not have 6 living children- but heck, 6!! Not bad for being told it won’t ever happen.
So here’s the background:
- 3 days before I was due for my cycle I emailed my nurse at the clinic from bed knowing the weekend was coming and I needed to order our meds for the next cycle.
- Got out of bed and decided- sure I may as well waste a cheapie from WalMart…..
- Totally shocked and amazed and completely confused at how DARK that line was for only 10dpo
- Called RE and explained that I had sent the email before getting out of bed and tested…. they agreed to see me through Beta Hell.
Beta#1 – 225.5
Beta#2 – 610.7
Beta#3 – 2102
Ultrasound #1 – gestational sac + fetal pole at 4w+5d but measuring 1w ahead
Ultrasound #2 – confirmed HB of 124 – measuring 1w ahead again (5w6d- but measuring 6+6)
Ultrasound #3 – measuring again 1 full week ahead- HB 169 (8w but measuring 9w)
So- today I am 10w even. It’s been a long few weeks. I was hit very hard in weeks 4-7 with Influenza A, then a stomach virus, and then pretty bad morning sickness set in and I was miserable until my RE gave me Diclegis. It’s changed the quality of my life dramatically and I am so thankful for modern medicine when holistic approaches do not work.
EDD: Oct 2nd, 2017
Next appointment: March 13th
Maternity clothes: pulled out some stretchy pants this week! So much more comfortable come 5p!
Sleep: I am actually sleeping a bit better than I was with Crosby. Might be the medication, or the fact that I’m going all day and don’t stop!
Food cravings: Grapefruit Juice, ice cold lemon water, nothing too particular!
Symptoms: Extreme Morning Sickness, fatigue, mild cramping, sore lower back.
Movement: Not yet! Hopefully soon!
What I’m loving: The opportunity to grow another baby. The opportunity to practice being normal and not fear and anxiety driven.
What I’m looking forward to: Feeling movements and knowing the gender.
I’m so excited, but nervous, and happy and terrified. I have felt every emotion on the spectrum. But I am in awe that we have finally had a spontaneous pregnancy- that has not miscarried. Granted I am so aware than anything can happen at anytime- but so far this babe is a survivor, thriving, being amazing at making his/her presence known! I’m in shock and awe. I feel so lucky and blessed to be experiencing this. It’s exhilarating!!
I can’t wait to watching this pregnancy progress and see what God’s future is for us.