I’m holding and snuggling my newest a little tighter this week as I remember the little(s) I didn’t get to hold.
Having one in my arms has changed my perspective on the 3 we didn’t get to meet. The pain is deeper, yet healed. The pain is present, but not suffocating. I’m more aware of what I’m missing, but it’s bittersweet to know that are cared for far better than I can provide.
Missing our babes today (7/25, 9/24, 4/25) and beyond thankful for the one I got to meet and I get to hold. Sometimes my words are completely insufficient for all the feelings that surround anniversaries.
Repeat Pregnancy Loss will always be a part of me. All 4 of our littles have 100% of my heart- for the rest of my life.
Sending love to you my friend. I am a firm believer that every child, no matter how long they live, leaves a lasting impact on those who are left to remember them. Like you, I will always cherish our little ones that we never got to hold in our arms.
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This is how I feel too. Having one makes you miss the lives that could have been, but cherish the life you have now.
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I love how you phrased this: “The pain is deeper, yet healed. The pain is present, but not suffocating. I’m more aware of what I’m missing, but it’s bittersweet to know that are cared for far better than I can provide.” My early miscarriage really hit me hard after I gave birth to my son. I know that little baby of mine is with our Heavenly Father and I will get to meet him or her one day.
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