As most of my friends and family know, my story started long ago. I have a detailed history of endometriosis, loads and loads surgeries, birth control pills, patches, implants, IUD’s, and some HRT (hormone replacement therapy). Fast Forward to September 2012 I had Surgery to remove an IUD, endometriosis, polyps, and a few other minor things. Due to an unexpected outcome of the said surgery I was then prompted to have some further testing done. I also switched to a different OB/GYN physician.
Here is another brief review:
I had a follow up in late March 2013 that involved confirmation of blocked tubes and a referral to a nearby fertility clinic when my (soon to be) husband and I decided we would want a family. IVF was going to be our best option were the words that filled that stale doctors office. I was devastated. How would we ever afford that? How is God going to make this right?
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In April of 2013 I decided to see a naturopath (Dr. M), it was suspected that my progesterone was low. I started sub lingual progesterone CD12/14-28 until mid June, then start a scheduled Hormone Panel for the first cycle after our marriage.
On June 8th of 2013 I was blessed to marry the love of my Life. Best Day Ever!
On July 22nd my worst nightmare came true. Our early ultrasound showed nothing but a slightly inflamed right fallopian tube. I knew something was wrong right away. But, the ultrasound tech told me that the doctor would review my scan and call me to schedule a follow up or a repeat ultrasound. On July 23rd my blood draw results from the previous day showed a decrease, it dropped to 150. Dr. S called and wanted to see me in her office that afternoon at 2:30pm. I was then diagnosed with an Ectopic (tubal) pregnancy. We chose surgery over shot of methotrexate, surgery allowed for us to confirm bilaterally blocked tubes, remove pregnancy, and check for endometriosis.
On July 24th we said good bye to Baby Brooks #1, HCG was negative following surgery.
The next several months were filled with tears, sorrow, sadness, and a deep desire to know my God a little more, I wanted understanding, I needed comfort. I was mad and I needed healing.
Come September we finally felt comfortable not preventing, but certainly not trying diligently. On September 18th I received another BFP on HPT, I quickly called my doctor in fear and she ordered blood tests. My HCG came back at 12. I was told that was definitely positive, but couldn’t determine if this was viable or not. The only way we could tell was if we repeated the blood work in 48 hours. Two days later my blood work came back at only 22. This was not looking promising. Within the next week the pregnancy was over. Leaving us with a date of the 24th being one of not so fond memories. We sadly waved good bye to Baby Brooks #2.
This is our African violet- I purchased this in memory of our little ones. Every time it blooms I am so overwhelmed with joy.
On December 19th I had a vsit with Dr. M and through tests we concluded I am not ovulating, I was low on both estrogen and progesterone. My stress levels were way too high and he recommends I consider cutting out a few things in my schedule and/or craziness of trying, and relaxing. In January I did a hormone panel that confirmed all our thoughts and decided on an action plan (wonky tests). My husband and I started working out and trying to eat healthier than we already did. I felt relaxed and trusted that in time the Lord would provide. He gave me such a peace and a sense of trust that I couldn’t ever replace.
So that is just a minor little recap of the last year. It has been filled to over flowing with Goodness, Gods favor and love, it has also seen plenty of tears, loads of heartache, and hours on my knees asking the Lord for direction. Just recently I was reminded of that Glorious season the Lord has promised me( to read that post click here). I firmly believe that those words that were promised are forever words, words that I will come to know and love and rely on in my walk. However, I know for certain my chapter of that season has come to a close.
Sufficiency: Learning to rely on the Lord and the Lord only to maneuver this messy life. Learning to let him carry me through and be my sole sustainer. My need for his presence was greatly refined through fire.
Restoration: Being refined completely stripped me of everything I thought I believed. He rebuilt me and redefined my faith and my whole relationship with Him. Not only was I restored spiritually, but emotionally I was healed, and even more miraculously, I was also physically healed. God used this full year to show my how much I needed a renewal of my mind and my life.
Redemption:
One year ago to the date of being told both tubes were 100% blocked I was greeted with the faintest of a positive pregnancy test.
As some may have read, the 24th will always be remembered as the day of the month I had lost both of our two babies that went to be with Jesus.
On 2/25 Beta Hcg- 206
Exactly one week later Beta Hcg – 6897
That same day, in the same office I was told of my ectopic with the same doctor who deemed me infertile,
Here’s what we discovered:
Perfectly, healthy, tiny little peanut growing a head of schedule.
Am I terrified of telling people so early? YES. Do I allow myself to become overwhelmed with worry and fear? On occasion. But, I can’t live and operate out of that. I have to believe that this is for my good and the Glory of God. He is to be praised in this circumstance. In my book, the Glory of God should always be revealed. I can’t not shout it out the Goodness and Greatness of our God. His Miracles are for Me. His healing is for Me.
God is so good!!! His mercy endures forever. I am thrilled for your Morgan this is our year The Lord is releasing beautiful babies to us. I pray that your pregnancy will be blessed and perfect and I cannot wait to follow you on this journey!!
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Am I reading this correctly, are you pregnant????
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MORGAN!!!!!! this is such a beautifully written account of God's work in your life. thank you so much for sharing it with us, and encouraging our hearts as well. i am so excited for you i can hardly sit still!!!! i am smiling even as i am typing, and thanking Jesus for His amazing miracle of life. i am so happy that you chose to be bold, and let God speak for Himself… for no one can know what tomorrow holds or why, except for our incredible Creator Himself. 🙂 yay!! happy dance….. happy dance!!!!! love you
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Thank you Charity!! 🙂 XOX
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Yes 🙂 I definitely am! 🙂 XOX
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Thank you Rhonda! Love you so much!
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YAY!! I of course have been waiting for this post and been stalking your page 😉 LOVE YOU!!! SO EXCITED and I give ALL the glory for this! He is awesome!!
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God is good. All the time! Congratulations on this wonderful news!
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Congrats Morgan!!! This is such wonderful news to read and such a blessing to both of you!!! God is so good!!
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I am so happy for you!
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Yay yay yay!!! You have been through so much, and it looks like it's your time to enjoy a perfectly healthy pregnancy this time around. So happy for you!
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Wahoo! CONGrats girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! love this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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So awesome, sweetie! Big, big congratulations! God is good 🙂
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oh WOW! Amazing! Yayeeeee! Congratulations lovely!!!
xoxoxoxo ~theunexpectedtrip
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<3 Love you Sweet friend!
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Thank you, Cindy! God is Good ALL the time.
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Amen! Thank you Amie!
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That's what I am believing! Healthy, perfect pregnancy. I'd be carried off to a loony bin if something were to go wrong! 😉 God is good, always!
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Thank you, Caroline!!!! Love you!
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XOX Thank you Amber!! Praying for you!
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Very Amazing! I was so content in knowing it was all in His time, thinking His time was you know… Later… Not now. Unexpected, and received with Great JOY! XOXO
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That's amazing! Congratulations!
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Welcome!!! I am happy to have you here! Thanks for stopping in and showing some love! It means a lot to us! XOX
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So excited for you! I've been waiting for you to spill the beans! Congratulations!
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What an amazing testimony of our AWESOME GOD!!! Praise Him! Thank you for sharing your story!
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I was waiting until most of our family knew what was happening. A lof of them read my blog and I didn't want anyone to be hurt that we didn't tell them in person. 🙂 It's sooo nice having it out in the open, we've recieved so much prayer and support, it's been so amazing! I love it!
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He is soo good, and so faithful! All the Glory to him and him alone! 🙂
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Such an amazing story! I love how God works miracles! I am pregnant for the 2nd time through IVF (lost the first on July 31, 2013) and she is due the EXACT date that we found out we were pregnant the 1st time, July 21. God works in mysterious ways and puts those little reminders of how truly amazing and in control He is! It's like our 1st little one in Heaven will be watching us the day his/her sister is born, saying, “I'm right there guys and I'm so happy to have a little sister!” Praying for your pregnancy and that you can start to enjoy it and not be scared. Being pregnant after a loss is hard and I dealt with emotions I never expected. You will move past it and start to enjoy it though, I promise!
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